Recently....

Recently...

• I have been feeling really disappointed in people.  I have told my Trav many times over the past few weeks that I just can't seem to get over my feeling towards some people around me or in my life.  I typically try not to hang on to negativiety in life but lately I have had a hard time letting go.  I just don't understand people.  Where is their loyalty? Where is the decency?  What about being a hypocrite? What happened to being selfless?  How about knowing you can't always be right!?!  I have talked alot on this blog about having relationship standards and moral standards for myself.  Perhaps my emotions are a direct reflection.   I admit, I do tend to project my standards on to others but, I generally try not to be overly judgemental and definitely try not to be condescending towards others.   I guess I am just at a point in my life where I am reevaluating people and things that are going on.  I am learning more about others and myself, which is never a bad thing.  People are not always what they seem, people change and become something other then who you thought they were.  It is difficult to accept and at times makes me chest hurt but I can't control everything.  I need to let all this baggage go and start just being better at accepting who people are whether I approve or not.  I can't put all my standards on others and then be disappointed when they don't fill the shoes I expect them to.  Its not fair.  What I can do is recognize who people really are and evaluate how much I want them in my life.  

• I can tell that our love for this Coast Guard lifestyle is waining.  My Trav and I talk more now about our life after the service then our life in the service or our past in the service.  We look forward to taking back 100% control of our lives.  Trav is getting weary of his job and I can see the excitement and satisfaction that has always been there slowly fading away.  He has absolute love for the service and neither he nor I can say anything bad about the life it has given us.  We have been blessed beyond words by the Coast Guard.  I just know that there will never be 25 or 30 years of service for my Trav.  He acquired a degee while active and our dreams are starting to shift away from this life towards a life after retirement back in the civilian world.  He and I both know we have a good, stable thing going right now and luckily we have another 5 years to prepare but we feel more and more ready as the years click by.  We dream of owning a home, letting our kids settle down and establishing a long term life for ourselves.  I think this tour here in Sitka has opened Trav's eyes and mine about where the CG is headed and which direction we want to go.  Its time to put the wheels in motion for us to have a life after this and be successful on the outside.  

• Last weekend I spontaneously decided we needed to move furniture.  I get this itch every six months or so.  We don't have a lot of options in our current house for furniture placement but no matter how many times I move the furniture back and forth,  I swear it makes me feel so good.  I know nothing about Fung Shui or interior design but I love the feeling of a fresh vibe in my house.  It somehow makes it feel like a fresh start.  It just feels good!  Our house has great southern exposure and plenty of windows so we get great natural light and on a sunny day we get amazing light.  I keep a very clean, organized home.  My mom says I have OCD but chaos and clutter kills me.  I also have never loved our current rental.  It just has never felt like my home. This house has decent space for us but something has always been missing for me.  Its hard to explain but this is our 7th home together and this one just doesn't feel like my home.  Its definitely our "house" just doesn't feel as homey as some of our others have.   But....I love when I get to rearrange things.  Makes me fall in love with all my stuff again.  

• Tonight Trav and I went out to dinner for our anniversary.  Afterwards he drove me out to the end of the road to enjoy the evening light.  It was an absolutely gorgeous evening and we were the only people out there.  It was quiet, peaceful and as usual the Sitka Sound was stunning.  The evening light just glistened on the water.  I expressed to Trav mulitiple times how blessed we are to have the opportunity to live here.  There are few places on this earth that can compare to the wild, ruggedness of Alaska.  I could not have asked for a better evening to spend with my Trav.  

• I read an article the other day about when was an appropriate time to talk to your daughter about sex.  The consensus was roughly 8-9 years old.  Honestly, I was shocked!  I immediately questioned whether or not I needed to be having this conversation with my girl.  It had not even crossed my mind.  If she asks me any questions then I would definitely answer them but in my mind her knowledge of sexuality was still nonexitent.  She gives no indication that this is something being discussed at school around her or that she has any questions or interest.  Now, I'm not ignorant or burying my head into the sand here.  I know girls are having sex younger these days and I know that our children in general are exposed to things earlier.  My baby girl is still just that...a little girl!  I have a very honest, open relationship with her.  I hide nothing from her that is relevant.  I consider myself tuned in.  I just wanted to preserve her ability to be nieve and innocent for a bit longer.  I guess I need to start asking some questions, putting some feelers out there and making it known that I am available.  Am I even old enough myself to be having these conversations????  Lord give me guidance.  Why can't they just stay little forever???

• I made homemade donuts for the kids the other night.  I have made them before and they are heavenly.  I didn't have a lot of time to spend making them from scratch so I sort of cheated the other night but my kids said these were delicious.  It was a quick, easy recipe that I honestly felt guilty making but...a little bit of a cheat every once in a while is okay.
  

There is nothing healthy about these what so ever.  I used Pillsbury Flaky Biscuit dough which in itself is at the bottom of the health meter.  I did fry them in coconut oil which is bit healthier and gave them an added hit of flavor.  I don't typically put recipes on here much but if your looking for a fun, quick recipe that is easy for the kids to help you with, this one is it.  The recipe is here!  Enjoy