For the past 3 years I have wept, ached and shuttered at the thought that on Nov. 10, 2007 my Papa died. This was and still is the most devastating day of my life. He meant so much to me and I believe only a handful of other people on this earth can truly understand it. I can't begin to put into words how magnificent he was, words just won't do him justice. So, I have cherished my memories and the life I had with him and then have tried to scratch the surface of his greatness when describing him to my children. This year though, something is different. This year my tears seem a little less and my ache a little softer. I haven't even shuttered the last few days when I knew this day was coming. I attribute that once again to his greatness. He is telling me its ok to miss him and to be sad that he isn't here, but I think he wants me to do something different this year. So today, I am celebrating life. Life in general that is. Papa always told me death was a part of life and we are all plagued by it. Each of us weeps for someone, but at some point we have to accept it and find the positives. While I still find very little that is positive about him being gone, but today I feel like taking a big deep breath and smiling. I will celebrate my time with him, my memories and the legacy that he left behind.
His legacy...he would be proud of. Family was everything to Papa and he taught that to everyone he was around. For the most part, since his passing we as a family have respected his passion for family. We have supported one another, loved one another and been good to each other. There are always those times that we waiver or perhaps our family has seen turmoil, but we held our heads high, showed grace and moved on. That is what Papa would have wanted. I love my family very much, as each person has something to offer. I make an attempt to remember birthdays, milestones and special moments. I personally believe it is those little things that mean the most to people and I make an effort to extend my love to the people who are most important to me. It may not be every day or every week, but I am confident that the people in my family know that I love them, I think of them and I miss them. Papa would be proud of me and my efforts, this is one of the things he taught me. Family is everything. There is nothing before it and everything comes after it. So today will be all about his legacy, greatness and how worthy he was of being so loved by all of us
Don't get me wrong when I say that I would give up almost anything for just one more day with him. Funny enough, I don't think that would be enough though. That day would just leave me craving for another. I miss the smell of his Aquavelva, his funny gestures and his no nonsense views of life. I miss visiting his home in Texas and would love to take my children there to drink ice tea with him in the backyard while we listen to old country music. LIfe is about finding a way to carry on though and honor those who aren't with us now. I hope that Papa thinks that I am honoring him and I hope my family feels the same. If not, someone needs to let me know because I know he's watching. I would hate to have to face him someday, as we all know he would not hesitate to ask me, "What the hell I was thinking"!
Glenn Alexander
9/7/1925 ~ 11/10/2007
I love you Papa



~“Perhaps they are not stars, but rather openings in heaven where the love of our lost ones pours through and shines down upon us to let us know they are happy.”